Gratitude. Contented.

I came to realize that I have been ranting alot. ALOT. in the past few months. Mainly due to being in the working world and my emotions have been pretty negative in every single post which kind of sort of gives off a vibe that I am not really enjoying myself in school. The recent posts have strayed from my original intention of "leaving memories for myself" into some outlet and platform for me to rant about stuff and I dunno if its good or bad.

Good because I get to sort my thoughts out more coherently and be a better person after keyboard-warrioring here.

Bad because its kind of unhealthy that I cannot sort out all the fked up thoughts in my own head and I actually have to resort to venting it out here to bring the equilibrium back in my life. Which is fked up in its own way.. its like a guy who has unhealthy sexual desires who watch porn alot to prevent himself from raping every single person in the streets. The root of the problem is not solved and this outlet may one day not be enough.. shit I am becoming negative again.. damn!

Anyway Bandung trip was pretty awesome =D It was much more enjoyable than what people online mentioned! The shopping was pretty decent, the food was extremely decent and the prices for everything (air ticket, accommodation, food, shopping, transport) were fking decent. I would strongly recommend going before it becomes touristy!

The trip itself was epic the moment I landed. I arranged for airport transfer from my hotel and for the first time in my life, I saw my name printed big big on a board while exiting which made me feel LIKEABOSS. Hahahaha and for the first time I stayed in a hotel instead of some cramped up guesthouse and the feeling was S.H.I.O.K. Got gym, got pool, got people opening doors and carrying ur luggage.. holy moly I am not staying in a guesthouse ever!

Anyway long story short.
We shopped. ALOT.
We ate. ALOT.
We slept. ALOT.
We spent. ABIT.

We planned for a few breakfast places but we did not wake up a single day before 11. In the end the only breakfast we ate was the hotel breakfast. which was still decent =D. This trip was much more relaxing compared to taiwan and korea where everything was planned meticulously, this trip was more free and easy and less tiring!

Moral of story: Earn more money, spend on nice relaxing holidays and explore the world! Super motivated and looking forward to the next holiday hehehe!

On the topic of earning more money, I would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude and contentment. Gratitude and being contented are the recent enlightenment and revelation that I had regarding being a better person in general. I also realized why Zoe makes me a better person and why I am so happy to be with her. Because I am grateful to her in many ways and I am so so contented to have her in my life.

Similarly, I am extending this revelation to my job and I also realized how lucky I am in many ways. People I met in *** are actually great people. Despite the many dramas and behind the scenes politics, there are many nice memories as well =D

A relationship blossomed which I am randomly responsible.
A chance to experience being a nicer and better person, even if its maybe 50% fake, it feels nice to be the good guy.
A chance to carry others and be seen as a carry. (There are many cons obviously but lets stay positive!)
A chance to give advice and people actually think your advice makes sense when I just wanna do a social experiment and see how things turn out on the expense of others =D

All in all, I am contented with my job, my life, and I am grateful for how things turned out. I am happy =)

Alright. Enough positivity. Back to some soul searching reflection.

Regrets. I am sure everyone has them. I personally don't have many major life changing regrets except the following.

1) I know its 太晚了. But the number one regret was hall life in Uni. I should have made better use of it. After reflection, I realized I could have made my Hall life much more exciting if I wasnt that addicted to gaming. But hey.. wcg medal for exciting hall life..#worth.

2) Cherishing people. I have alot of close secondary friends that I no longer keep in touch even though I am extremely thankful to them for making my secondary school life so memorable.

3) 宽容，感恩. I should have learnt this ages ago. Makes me a better and happier person =)

Maybe its because I am listening to Katy Perry's song which made me think about what I would change and who would I become if I had a chance to be "In another life".