Smoking

Within weeks of entering ***, my classmates have made an observation that I should go sell vacuum cleaners. They say I have a very good sales pitch and my demeanor makes a very convincing sales person.

Within months of entering ***, I have been accused of smoking through a group discussion and questioned if I actually read or referenced a legit journal for my assignments.

Did I actually read the journal? No I didnt. Why? Because I used materials given to me by professors. I actually bothered to listen and make connections and related the materials given by module A to be used in an assignment by module B. The prof provided the journal he took the information from, I simply copy pasted the citation.

Did I really go to the journal and cross reference the points mentioned in the journal to the prof's materials? No. Why? Because fk you. Are you really that stupid?

Did I really smoke in a group discussion? No. Since everybody was tired, I tried to spearhead the discussion and managed to settle everybody's roles within 10 mins.

One young fk had the audacity to call me at 11pm, questioning me about the journal article and where it was from, when we actually take the same modules and the prof went through them. After I patiently explained that I did not pull the points out of my ass (exact words used), but rather I took the materials from another module, she questioned the integrity of my work and whether I was "smoking" them in the discussion just now. Wow. Can she get any more dense?

Yes I know I have a very easy going nature. Yes I know I have a very lazy and "joker" personality. And it is precisely because of the drastic contrast between the serious me and the joker me, people tend to take me more seriously than others when I am serious. Because when I am serious, means shit just got real, and people also can feel that. Therefore I am astounded by the lack of EQ from this young fk who had the audacity to question my integrity regarding both the meeting and the assignment.

There is a Chinese saying that goes: 靠人不如靠己. Depend on yourself rather than depending on others.

I have a philosophy. I would depend on everyone and anyone for everything and anything. Only when everyone else around me has failed, I would then depend on myself. I personally think that makes more sense, if someone else can dabao food for you while you seat on your ass and play games/watch videos, why the fk not? Yea sure I have legs and I can go dabao myself, but why the fk would I do that if someone else can do it for me?

End of rant. Moral of the story: I really really really really really need to constantly remind myself to not show too much of my personality in the working world. Just shut the fk up, wait for someone else to do shit, keep a low profile. Just like in NS.

Reminder to self: Don't argue with people higher den myself, since they think they are always right. Don't argue with people lower den myself, since I think I am always right and it takes too long to explain things to retards.

In short, dun argue, stfu, keep calm and "fire in the hole" *psssssssssssssssss* (smokescreen formed)